It's not often that I think of my past, but today, I did. It's a weird feeling remembering what life used to be like... Don't you wish you would've had the knowledge u have now? I do and I don't tho... Without those past mistakes, I wouldn't be were I am now, and lets face it, I'm happy as a clam where I am now. =]I have an amazing boyfriend, I actually catch myself smiling for absolutely no reason at all, I love my job (which is very odd for a 16 year old), I'm on high honor roll, my parents trust me for once in my life (IT'S A MIRACLE PEOPLE!), I actually like my drawings, I have a plan in life, and yea. It's just weird... So many things I wish I didn't have to go threw... but that's what makes me me. I guess it's karma or something, cause I have always tried to be a good person, no matter how shitty life is. I hate trying to put blame on others about my problems, and now that I don't do that, I really don't have any problems. Idk, I'm not trying to sound like I'm totally and utterly awesome, it's just so weird to want to change your past, but not where you ended up. That's not even possible I guess. I don't ever want to leave this place in life right now. =] I just hope that when it does change it gets even better (if that's possible)